...5 "I remember the days of old;
I meditate on all Your doings;
I muse on the work of Your hands.
6 I stretch out my hands to You;
My soul longs for You, as a parched land.
7 Answer me quickly, O LORD, my spirit fails;
Do not hide Your face from me,
Or I will become like those who go down to the pit.
8 Let me hear Your lovingkindness in the morning;
For I trust in You;
Teach me the way in which I should walk;
For to You I lift up my soul.
9 Deliver me, O LORD, from my enemies;
I take refuge in You.
10 Teach me to do Your will,
For You are my God;
Let Your good Spirit lead me on level ground.
11 For the sake of Your name, O LORD, revive me.
In Your righteousness bring my soul out of trouble.
12 And in Your lovingkindness, cut off my enemies
And destroy all those who afflict my soul,
For I am Your servant."
My oldest daughter's house was destroyed in the April tornadoes in Alabama. My best friend and father-in-law have been in hospice. My youngest daughter bought her first house 12 hrs. away. My oldest needed a break and took a week to go see her sister's new house and took me with. It seemed clear that my friend would not recognize me when I got home. After that very long drive, I lost my credit card. Praise God, within the hour it was recovered. My youngest had to work till 2pm each day and the plan was for her sister and I to work on the house (1908 and needs EVERYTHING) until she got off each day. The very first morning Grandpa dies...here. We had only a couple of hours there and then would have to come home. She showed us some of her community, took us to work to meet her co-workers and got friends together to meet us at dinner. Dinner was an unmitigated disaster and took 2 1/2 hrs. just to get seated and then everything else went wrong. She got special permission to show us the new church building, in the dead of night and a raging storm. I know that the "church" is the people, the boy of Christ and not the building, but oh, it was breathtaking and brought tears to my eyes for longing to go to the altar and pray. Prayer rose from my heart that He inhabit this place with His precious presence. Then at 5:30am we started back. We got back a bit after the wake started and then the funeral was the next day followed by my girls leaving before the sun again to drive back to West Virginia. They pulled in just in time to go to the church retreat they had planned to attend that night and then all day the next day. And just a bit ago my oldest arrived home again. She took the trip because she so needed to rest and recover from her loss and ended up making 4 - 12 hr. trips in six days and back to work at 5am tomorrow!
It was devastating to have to leave my baby girl without having gotten to help her at all with her major fixer-upper, and so sad I didn't get to worship with her. I have so looked forward to being there after her being part of that fellowship for a year and a half. I should have gotten two services and instead got none. But God knew all this ahead of time and since He allowed all this, it must be for the best. I am still so busy with working with the insurance for my daughter's house and being involved with the contractor too. Praise God, work began on the rebuilding while we were gone!!!
I have noticed an interesting reaction I am having from all the selvage work at the house, first moving all we could grab to the still standing garage, then spreading it all daily in the sun to try to dry (no power) and turning it all every little while trying to avoid mildew, the sorting, boxing and moving it to storage, the sorting through the storage for anything she could use in her empty apartment, the trying to pull pieces of furniture from the storage unit to send for refinishing, the trying to remember every item, list it, age it, put a price on it for the insurance, the negotiating every single item for permission to replace it and what would be allowed, shop to replace it, get my daughter's approval, return some, scan receipts and submit them to insurance, all the endless muck that is still messed up with them etc. BTW there are still expenses she had to pay from her own pocket the first couple of weeks, that the insurance TOLD her to pay to get into an apartment, that we still haven't been able to get her reimbursed for. It happened 4-27!
I found I was suddenly driven to reduce my own household. I spent quite a while before the ill fated trip going through my house top to bottom and giving away lots of things I simply wasn't using. Paring down. Down-sizing! It was a while before I made the connection with what was going through with my daughter and this need to reduce possessions. Interesting. I now remember the thought floating briefly through my mind as I was doing what had to be done for her the first two days and my body suffering so for it, thinking that I could never do this for my own house. LOL isn't it funny what we will do for others, but couldn't for ourselves? Overcoming physical barriers simply because your child needs help, no matter what it costs you? :) God knew what He was doing when He made mamas!
And I needed order. There has been such chaos since the disaster, chaos not only in our lives from the loss, but in our community at large and our state even larger. So, as I went through virtually everything I own, I returned it all to it's previously ordered existence that had fallen by the wayside as I became more and more busy these last years with the daily freebie blog, the teaching Bible class having to make everything I used, etc. So now my home is greatly de-cluttered and orderly, the way I always used to keep it. It is more "me" again. But I do find it interesting.
I found it excruciating to leave my youngest's house in such bad condition and not be able to help her. Parts remind me of the tornado destroyed house of her sister that I have worked so endlessly trying to help, but I cannot help my youngest. She has no money, no equipment, no experience in this to speak of. Being an apartment dweller she had no reason and frankly no interest in all of this. She bought the house because she couldn't afford the unheated basement she'd been living in the last year and a half. This house with utilities included still costs less than that basement. So it made sense. But oh she needs so much help, and I can't help her. It's hard. I knew it wasn't in great shape, but was not prepared for what I found actually being there. Both my girls, single young women, have houses in varying degrees of destruction, their first houses, one bought just a year ago, the other just 3 weeks ago. One has insurance and mom helping. The other has nothing.
I have had to "let go and let God", to borrow a phrase form Alanon. I'm resting in the fact that as I said before, God knew all this ahead of time. He's not shocked. He has a plan. I can't see it, but that doesn't mean it's not there. He loves them. They belong to Him. He has promised to take care of those who love Him and obey Him, and they do, so He will. Amen!
So, that's the update. The passage I shared above I really love from today's Bible reading. I hope it blessed you too. Is anyone still keeping up with their daily Bible reading? I'm still loving the chronological plan I'm following this year. I really want to encourage you, if you haven't started yet, there are plans on www.biblegateway.com that you can start on any day you choose! It's never too late! Who said we had to start at the first of the year? Did you start this year but have fallen behind? Don't be discouraged!! Nothing worth doing is easy! Just start from where you left off and get going again! Remember, there's someone very invested in your NOT doing this and he is filling your head with all manner of excuses and discouraging arguments. He's a liar! Don't listen to him!!!! Listen to your Father who loves you and tells you to meditate on His Word daily so that it can live in you and direct your steps toward heaven and not let you wander to hell! This is worth doing and I'm right here with you encouraging you to keep fighting the good fight of faith! Keep walking that straight and narrow path. There's one less day now to deepen our relationship with the Almighty. We had time for a lot of less important things today. Truth be told, we had time for a short Bible reading too. We always find time for what's important to us. Tell satan to shut up and invest a few minutes in your eternity.
I want to give you something as it's been a while, and these are such gorgeous kits, so here's the freebie that I give away with this kit. Hope you enjoy it! I'll be back asap. Please keep us in your prayers and thank you so much for your support! Hugs!
Peacock Feathers is absolutely exquisite! This is everything you could want in Peacock Feathers and all utterly gorgeous! There are natural colors and several awesome variations for maximum usability, fabulous papers, overlays and more. Click image to enlarge. Click Buy It Now Button below image to purchase from my PayPal Store for $5.99.Peacock Feathers has 25 pieces:
2 Gold Feathers (1 bright gold; 1 muted antique gold)
3 Feather Clusters
3 12" overlays
1 Feather Swirl
1 Feather Row
and a coordinating kit that's great as frames or, my favorite, just tucked behind things:
Peacock Feathers 2 $2.50